Separation anxiety

Today was Ayomi's first day at a childcare center. On the way there, I told him what to expect, and I tried to be cheerful. The pep talk was really for me to calm my own nerves.

I left him smiling in the arms of strangers, and he didn't seem to be bothered when I walked out. I cried in my car. He was still smiling when I returned a few hours later. He had a good day, and that made me feel better. 

 

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