A Future and a Hope
I remember a conversation with my former PCP in 2016 when I first explored the idea of freezing my eggs. At that time, I decided not to do it. She shared her own story about becoming a mother of twins later in life. She told me that we think there's a straight line to what we want, but our paths could take many unexpected turns to get us to the destination. Dr. B was the best medical professional I ever met, and her words still help me today. I gleaned so many nuggets of wisdom in the past that I didn't know would influence me so much in the present. God put me in places to receive the seeds that I needed, and I'm seeing them grow.
No one is ever prepared to become a parent, no matter how many kids you babysit or how many books you read. However, I believe I am more prepared than many because of life experiences, planning, and formal training.
Life experiences
Being alive for 43 years, I've had a myriad of experiences, good and bad. I have won, lost, loved, broken up, forgiven, been forgiven, known lack, known abundance, explored, planted, cultivated, weeded, and striven for better.
I know what living in chaos looks like, and I know what peace looks like. I choose peace. My child will know a peaceful home with a loving mother who has the resources to provide a comfortable life.
Planning
Once I decided that I was moving forward with IVF, I released fear and walked toward my future full of hope. I prayed, planned, and paid for my miracle baby, and I'm grateful that I could.
Training
I've said for years that all parents and caregivers should be licensed to care for children. I had the privilege of putting that into practice when I went through the foster care licensing process. I took classes on child development, communication, discipline, recognizing sexual abuse, and CPR/First aid. I didn't realize at the time that I would be using what I learned in those classes for my biological child. I will also complete childbirth and breastfeeding classes soon.
When the baby arrives, I will feel completely lost even with all my planning. 😋I'm excited and nervous about being a mom. There is still hope. I trust God and know that all our needs are abundantly supplied.
Photos: Santos Paris Photography www.santosparisphotography.com
Hair: Becky's Royal Beauty Palace
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