That Mother Lode

Today was Ayomi's first day at a childcare center. On the way there, I told him what to expect, and I tried to be cheerful. The pep talk was really for me to calm my own nerves. I left him smiling in the arms of strangers, and he didn't seem to be bothered when I walked out. I cried in my car. He was still smiling when I returned a few hours later. He had a good day, and that made me feel better.   

4:19am Hi. I feel like I'm crashing, and I need to breathe. Are you able to come over today for 1-2 hours? 4:58am  Hey there. Great awareness and proactiveness. Thursday is my long day...but i will see where I can make a hole.   Even though it seems like we're finding our rhythm more and more, this week felt harder. Ayomi woke up around 2:30am yesterday, and I couldn't go back to sleep after feeding him because I was so stressed.  I sing, talk, read, and play with him all day everyday, because I want to be engaged and let him know that he is important to me. He is thriving and showing great curiosity, which makes me feel good. However, I am an introvert. I have learned to adapt and exhibit extroverted behaviors when needed, but it is draining to be "on" all the time without alone  time for me to recover and get re-energized. I desperately reached out to my friend for help, and she responded without judgment. She watched him and I was able to recharge for a few hou...

It's been more than 3 months since our family of 3 was formed. Ayomi is growing and changing daily. He's more active and attentive to the world around him. He's "talkative" and doesn't seem to care that I don't understand his language yet. His laughter and gummy smile brighten each day. He mostly sleeps through the night now. He's enjoying baths more, and we have a good bedtime routine in place. Isis sometimes sits outside the nursery door so she can see us getting ready for bed. (She's not allowed in bedrooms.) She generally ignores Ayomi and stays focused on me. I think they will be great friends once Ayomi is mobile and they can play together. Enjoying the beautiful weather together Isis sitting outside the nursery